Being sore, pictures and more

I have had my first week of working out with Ashley and I must say she is doing a great job of kicking my butt!  I am more sore than I have been in a long time.  Although I am working hard with her I am finding it hard to get the motivation I need to really commit myself this time.  I don't know what is wrong with me this go around.

Something inside of me is different this time.  I don't know what it is, but it's bugging me.  I feel like crying when I work out and I don't have a lot of desire to go to the gym right now.  I know what I need to do, but I can't really make myself commit to this.  Maybe it's not having a goal to shoot for, like a race or something.  Maybe it's the fact that I've done this all before and I feel discouraged starting over again where I was before I had Corbin.  Maybe it's the fact that I know I'm going to have another kid and so it's disheartening to try again when I feel like I am in this cycle of never-ending torture to myself.

I have found that I am a self saboteur.

There a new pics of me on the pictures page.  Ashley and I will be taking pictures periodically so that I can see changes happening.

I have new measurements and I will post them soon.

Results

I finished the cleanse and here is what happened. Traveling on the last day wasn't as much of a challenge as I thought it would be.  I packed a bunch of veggies, an apple, 3/4 C sliced strawberries with some beef jerky.  we stopped at Burger King for dinner and I got there garden salad with grilled chicken.  Everything comes separate and you put on what you want.  I didn't use the salad dressing and it was really good.

I never knew salad could taste good without the dressing.  Will I eat it that way from now on, probably not, but at least some of the time I will.

I had an amazing amount of energy and felt really good.  The next couple of days I started eating carbs again and dairy.  At first it hurt my stomach, but it was ok after a day.  The other thing I realized was that a high amount of carbs makes me really tired.

So, what now?  Well, I've gone back to my regular diet with some exceptions.  Those exceptions are I eat more often and I eat within a 1/2 hr of waking up.  I also try to get more protein and less carbs in my diet with more veggies and not as much fruit as I had been eating.

The Single Best Ab Exercise You Can Do -- And It's Not A Crunch

Clint and I tried this. We loved how tough it was and that you can feel all the abs working at once.  Click the link below to check it out.

The Single Best Ab Exercise You Can Do -- And It's Not A Crunch